*wrapping presents* *wrapping thousands of presents*

Thanks to everyone who commented on my...verbose post yesterday. It hasn't gotten any worse or happened again, and since I'd been having breathing difficulty (coughing, hacking) for a few weeks I'm thinking maybe I just got my throat a little raw. My chest felt a little funny when I woke up again, but it seems to be fine now. If it happens again I will definitely be heading to the Doctor, though.

Anyways...I've discovered a new anime obsession! It's been a while since I've seen an anime that I love so I'm happy to have decided to try it! It's Fruits Baskets, it's all on Hulu, and it's oddly addictive. It kinda makes me LOL because it can be silly, and it can also be a wee bit inappropriate, which I love. So I'm watching it while I wrap all these presents that are NOT mine. Another thing I hate about Christmas? I get stuck wrapping everyone's presents!

Good thoughts, though? I'm working the entire week of Christmas except for the Eve, which means at least a full shift of overtime, YAY. Also, avoiding family, YAY.

Tags: rl: family, rl: health, tv: anime
Current Mood: rushed

So...I just coughed up some blood. Which is bad.

I'm ignoring that in favor of watching Fruits Basket on HULU. Which is good.

Tags: fandom: general, rl: health

Poll #1499386 Holiday Card Question
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 7

Do you prefer real cards (snail mail) or e-cards during the winter holidays?

I'm asking because next year I'm thinking of doing e-cards instead of regular snail mail cards. I already do all my bills and everything online, and postage is going up so much and yadda yadda yadda...plus I can get more than one type of card and personalize them more and blah blah blah. I'm curious as to what you guys think, since you'll be the ones receiving them.

Tags: ol: friends
Current Mood: blank

I went to my dark place last night, at work. I mean, my very dark place. For little to no reason at all.

I think it may be a combination of PMS!anger and holiday!depression.

I just...I honestly hate the holidays. I really do. And on top of that, two weeks before I start to bleed internally I always get intense mood swings. This one was particularly bad, I teared up at one point and I haven't cried in AGES. Like, it's been years since I let a situation/mood get to me like that. Last time it was this bad was December of '05 when I quit school, right around the time I started this LJ. This didn't last anywhere as long as my slumps then did; point of fact the mood has already gone away, but still. It was very jarring. I didn't want to take it out on anyone else so I literally spent like the entire shift, eight and half hours, being silent as much as possible. AND I STILL MANAGED TO TAKE IT OUT ON OTHER PEOPLE. *head/desk*

Tags: rl: no therapy
Current Mood: stressed

I've gotten like 95% of my Christmas shopping done, so yay for that! Most of that is already wrapped too. I have yet to start Grandma's wrapping, however.

I've grown very out-of-touch with LJ lately. Like, I'm not posting or commenting that much. I'm pretty much immersing myself in isolation. I think it's the holidays, they're not really my thing so when the big ones roll around I get all moody and sullen. I've been working hard on not letting myself take that feeling out on other people. This often results in me being silent, however, because I don't trust myself to not do it.

In another source of irritation, someone at work called me a brown-noser today. I think he meant it jokingly, otherwise why say it to my face, but there is a chance he meant it seriously. I can see where people would get that impression, I eat my lunch, when I take a break, with boss!people instead of with the team...but here's the thing...THE TEAM DOESN'T LIKE ME AND I DON'T LIKE THEM. I FIND THEM LAZY AND MORONIC AND GENERALLY APATHETIC ABOUT THEIR JOBS. I care about my job and take responsibility for it and am most comfortable with people who do the same...which turns out to be the boss people. (Note to f-list: There's two levels of boss people, team leads [assistant manager, I guess?] and ETL [bosses], and then STL [big boss].) (I mainly hang with the team leads, but they group with the ETLs on break so it's an association thing.)

Also, brown nosing implies a sucking up, which is something I definitely don't do. Hell, most breaks all they do is rag on each other, and since I'm there, me! (They find great amusement in the fact that I'm so small. I don't get it, but I'm used to it by now.) (I think it's cause they're all guys.) (Stupid boys.) When I eat with them it's less that they're my authoritative people and more like they're...I don't know, friends?

I don't know why I'm letting this bother me. The fact is I hang with the people I sit with because I LIKE them. They make me laugh and seem to like me too. Why would I torture myself by sitting with people I don't like? Why do I care that the people I don't like are judging me for the company I keep?

*nods resolutely* I don't. Nope, I don't.

(This is gonna fucking bother me. I will bottle it up, however.)

Tags: rl: family, rl: job

Thanks for the cookies, you know who you are. If only they were real...*pout*

Anyone who wants a card can find the post here, and I recommend hitting it soon as I've already bought the cards and they be going fast. I think I have five left? Maybe?

Started Christmas shopping and though money isn't ridiculously tight this year, I've been saving and thus am avoiding the credit card this year, I'm a little tweaked by the fact that because of an internet hiccup I'm $200 cheaper in my bank account. What kerfluffle you ask? I was paying off the credit card and somehow it registered as two payments. So my credit card is overflowing with money, but I want it back in my bank account. I called yesterday and it's supposed to go through sometime today but as of ten minutes ago it's not even pending yet. *Head/desk* If I have to call one more time...someone will DAH.

(I need new icons, y/y?)

ETA: I'm filling out the cards, right, and thought maybe I should let you all know...umm, I do personalized cards, with mini-messages in them...and depending on my mood they can be crack-y or sincere. Generally they end up crack-y. So...yeah, if they're weird it's because I think I'm being cute.

ETA(2): So I also redid my journal on the fly, just cause I was tired of what I had.

Tags: rl: anxiety

For some reason my dead fandoms are acting up today. I spent a chunk of the morning watching episode of "The Lost World" and just now watched the first five episodes of "In A Heartbeat". Stupid dead fandoms, LEAVE ME ALONE. YOU'RE DEAD. STAY DEAD. I DON'T WANT TO BE INVESTED IN YOU ANYMORE.

(BUT I CAN'T HELP IT, ROXTON IS SO RUGGEDLY HANDSOME AND MARGUERITE IS SUCH A BITCH, I CAN'T RESIST THE UST.)

Tags: tv: love

Oh, LOL. I totally spammed a couple of card posts. Some people direct linked me and then when f-list surfing I clicked on them again. So...sorry.

Tags: ol: friends